I just found out that youtube is actually not as boring as I used to think. Recently I stumbled across some very funny videos by a guy called KevJumba I think. I mean I find the videos he made freakingly funny. Not that I am promoting his videos but I never knew that youtube actually contains such videos. Haha.
Honestly, his video are really awesome as they help me destress after a day of examination - I just found out about his videos and I am having exams right now. The stuff that he talks about are just so typical, but the way he acts and says it out makes even the most common and predictable things funny. Haha.
I guess enough of me promoting his videos but really, you guys should really watch it. After a stressful day, a good laugh towards the end of it really helps.
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Failure... A very painful thing to bear...
Perhaps I am just not as good as I think I am... Recently 3 of my applications to scholarship and universities were rejected. Shell rejected me outright, Cambridge rejected me after making me wait anxiously for 4 days thanks to their 'we are going to send you your results tomorrow' mail, and imperial just rejected me as well by offering me a biomedical engineering course which is like err.... The reason given - I am just not good enough I think. Alright, they didn't really put it that way but they might as well do that. I mean what's the difference right?
Honestly, I thought I am more mature right now and failures are easier to deal with. But it seems like no matter how many times I fail, each failure seems to be more painful than the last. Arghhhh, what is the matter with me? Why can't I get into any of the top universities? Am I just stupid? Or dumb? This is just so frustrating!!!!
Right now my options are really getting narrower and narrower and at the moment, I am really getting no where without any concrete offer from realistic universities. Sad isn't it? Haiz. I really hate to pity myself because it is just pathetic! You hear me pathetic! So just get over these and start working to improve yourself as a whole! Its not over yet. I am going to get something by the end of the day. I will!!!
Sorry peeps, this is turning out to be a self-conversing blog. But not many people read it anyway, so...
Anyways, I really have got to pull things together and just improve myself. Maybe I should work on my self-presenting skills and my English which is horrendous. Well, right now my A levels exam is going to finish next week and after that I have got to work even harder to secure at least a good scholarship and a good university placing. Singapore is my main target but who knows right? Not looking too far ahead though. Till next time...
Honestly, I thought I am more mature right now and failures are easier to deal with. But it seems like no matter how many times I fail, each failure seems to be more painful than the last. Arghhhh, what is the matter with me? Why can't I get into any of the top universities? Am I just stupid? Or dumb? This is just so frustrating!!!!
Right now my options are really getting narrower and narrower and at the moment, I am really getting no where without any concrete offer from realistic universities. Sad isn't it? Haiz. I really hate to pity myself because it is just pathetic! You hear me pathetic! So just get over these and start working to improve yourself as a whole! Its not over yet. I am going to get something by the end of the day. I will!!!
Sorry peeps, this is turning out to be a self-conversing blog. But not many people read it anyway, so...
Anyways, I really have got to pull things together and just improve myself. Maybe I should work on my self-presenting skills and my English which is horrendous. Well, right now my A levels exam is going to finish next week and after that I have got to work even harder to secure at least a good scholarship and a good university placing. Singapore is my main target but who knows right? Not looking too far ahead though. Till next time...
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
Feeling out of place...
Ah well, recently I just realised something while I was spending time with my college mates... Money does seem to be a factor while hanging out with them... It always like they want to go to some fancy place but I couldn't afford it and I kind of feel bad and out of place...
Most of the time when they talk about stuff, it is always about something that involves material that you will need money to buy. Since I am not exactly the type that have the money to buy stuff or even dream of buying them, I too always feel out of place in these conversations...
Kind of sad when you think about it... I am just not that kind of person that want to buy stuff all the time to keep myself happy. Honestly, I like to do activities that doesn't involve money at all or minimal amount of it if possible. Well, its not that I find them annoying, as I do learn about something here and there, but I really wish that I could find someone whom I can share my passion with...
I guess those kind of friends are hard to come by... From the looks of it, its the environment that we live in that causes our mentality to be totally different... Well, I just hate to spend money on something as I always regret whatever that I buy sooner or later. Haha. That's why I have never even spend a single dime on any electronic device... Can't believe it right? Haha.
Anyways, I just got the interview from Cambridge and I guess I'll be spending these next few weeks preparing for it... Got to go now, till next time. Cao.
Most of the time when they talk about stuff, it is always about something that involves material that you will need money to buy. Since I am not exactly the type that have the money to buy stuff or even dream of buying them, I too always feel out of place in these conversations...
Kind of sad when you think about it... I am just not that kind of person that want to buy stuff all the time to keep myself happy. Honestly, I like to do activities that doesn't involve money at all or minimal amount of it if possible. Well, its not that I find them annoying, as I do learn about something here and there, but I really wish that I could find someone whom I can share my passion with...
I guess those kind of friends are hard to come by... From the looks of it, its the environment that we live in that causes our mentality to be totally different... Well, I just hate to spend money on something as I always regret whatever that I buy sooner or later. Haha. That's why I have never even spend a single dime on any electronic device... Can't believe it right? Haha.
Anyways, I just got the interview from Cambridge and I guess I'll be spending these next few weeks preparing for it... Got to go now, till next time. Cao.
Sunday, August 22, 2010
No one to talk to..........
Feeling kind of down at the moment... So many things in my mind but no one to share with...
Monday, August 16, 2010
Hi there....
Wow! Again it seems like forever since the last time I posted a post. Well well, right now I am in my third semester of A levels studies and the second sem results is coming out in just a few days time and the nerves are hitting me badly. What if... There is just so much to write about haha.
Alright, first I actually took my Ielts and got a band 8 for it. Honestly I was quite happy about it but I expected more... as usual. Right now the thing that is bugging me is the personal statement that I need to write for the application of UCAS. Looking at those sample statements, I felt so dwarfed by those people's achievements. Haiz. If only I was as good as them.....
Besides that, I am also currently contemplating about applying to the US. But.. there is always the but, haha, I'll need to take the SAT exams and finish my applications and personal statements by the end of the year. Its just so troublesome when you come to think about it. I am still not sure as to whether to apply for it or not... Hmmm.... decisions, decisions...
As for the college work that I am currently doing, it'll be the Malaysian Studies work that is fast becoming a pain in the ass. I thought it'll be a breeze with the new found geniuses in my team but how wrong I was. As usual there are the ones where they just can't function properly and well I and a few other team members end up covering for them. Frustrating isn't it? Haha.
That's why for the UCAS thingy I am actually hoping to get into great universities like Cambridge and Imperial College. Seems a little far-fetched eh? I don't know, but I certainly don't rule them out. People around me here are all so damn rich, they actually can afford to do twinning programs with their parents' money. A little jealous here I guess... But I realised that only if I got to go to those overseas Universities through my own effort that I'll be truly satisfied. So the hard work got to start...
I have been quite lazy I have to say. Astonishingly, I came to a realisation that computer games no longer appeal to me anymore. Which is kind of weird considering how hooked on it I was during my schooling times. Nowadays I'd rather spend my weekends doing research and reading up on the latest technology available. Strange right? Just like the poem that I wrote a few years ago, the unpredictability of time.
It changes you, gives you a new perspective on life, gives you new loving friends which I didn't knew exists, and above all it still has so much to offer...
That's it for now, I guess till the next post which might be in a few months' time. ^.^
Alright, first I actually took my Ielts and got a band 8 for it. Honestly I was quite happy about it but I expected more... as usual. Right now the thing that is bugging me is the personal statement that I need to write for the application of UCAS. Looking at those sample statements, I felt so dwarfed by those people's achievements. Haiz. If only I was as good as them.....
Besides that, I am also currently contemplating about applying to the US. But.. there is always the but, haha, I'll need to take the SAT exams and finish my applications and personal statements by the end of the year. Its just so troublesome when you come to think about it. I am still not sure as to whether to apply for it or not... Hmmm.... decisions, decisions...
As for the college work that I am currently doing, it'll be the Malaysian Studies work that is fast becoming a pain in the ass. I thought it'll be a breeze with the new found geniuses in my team but how wrong I was. As usual there are the ones where they just can't function properly and well I and a few other team members end up covering for them. Frustrating isn't it? Haha.
That's why for the UCAS thingy I am actually hoping to get into great universities like Cambridge and Imperial College. Seems a little far-fetched eh? I don't know, but I certainly don't rule them out. People around me here are all so damn rich, they actually can afford to do twinning programs with their parents' money. A little jealous here I guess... But I realised that only if I got to go to those overseas Universities through my own effort that I'll be truly satisfied. So the hard work got to start...
I have been quite lazy I have to say. Astonishingly, I came to a realisation that computer games no longer appeal to me anymore. Which is kind of weird considering how hooked on it I was during my schooling times. Nowadays I'd rather spend my weekends doing research and reading up on the latest technology available. Strange right? Just like the poem that I wrote a few years ago, the unpredictability of time.
It changes you, gives you a new perspective on life, gives you new loving friends which I didn't knew exists, and above all it still has so much to offer...
That's it for now, I guess till the next post which might be in a few months' time. ^.^
Friday, January 8, 2010
Exam looming...
Wow, can't really believe it I guess, it has been such a lo0nnnng time since I last updated my blog. haha. Lazy plus insufficient time make the excuse.
Alright, right now I am going to have my exam next Monday, which is pretty soon. Well, things aren't exactly as easy as I thought. Especially the biology paper. Can't seem to pen down the right answer all the time. Haiz. So frustrating you know...
One of the reasons is probably because the paper isn't as straight forward as SPM. Think, think, think that is what they want me to do. However hard I try, I just can't figure it out. Why?? I kept asking myself, perhaps I should ask myself more of that during the exam then I will be able to do it haha.
Whatever it is, I'll just do my best and wait for the results... My aim? Sky high as usual. Hope to achieve it though. But with my current state, seems doubtful.
To all my friends who are having their exams, Goodluck guys and gals. ^.^
Got to go, till next time................
Alright, right now I am going to have my exam next Monday, which is pretty soon. Well, things aren't exactly as easy as I thought. Especially the biology paper. Can't seem to pen down the right answer all the time. Haiz. So frustrating you know...
One of the reasons is probably because the paper isn't as straight forward as SPM. Think, think, think that is what they want me to do. However hard I try, I just can't figure it out. Why?? I kept asking myself, perhaps I should ask myself more of that during the exam then I will be able to do it haha.
Whatever it is, I'll just do my best and wait for the results... My aim? Sky high as usual. Hope to achieve it though. But with my current state, seems doubtful.
To all my friends who are having their exams, Goodluck guys and gals. ^.^
Got to go, till next time................
Sunday, August 30, 2009
A Break.....
A break phew.... Kind of relief about having a break after studying for consecutive 12 weeks. Never had I thought that 9 months down the road my destiny would turn out to be so different. Yeah, like I had mentioned a thousand times before life is indeed unpredictable....
But it is the unpredictability that makes it interesting, that keeps us guessing what would be coming next....
A levels might be easier than what I had experienced before but that also means that the going will only get tougher from here. Seems like perfection is the key to err success in A levels. Judging on what I had heard the past week, I realised that in almost every single subject achieving the 100 marks is the ultimate goal. A 98 is simply just not good enough.
Well, well seems like there is a huge task ahead of me.... Got to start studying harder... No doubt about that. The hope of securing a scholarship is the only thing that drives me on I guess..... Hope... something that always enlighten our hearts.... Perfection here I come!!!
But it is the unpredictability that makes it interesting, that keeps us guessing what would be coming next....
A levels might be easier than what I had experienced before but that also means that the going will only get tougher from here. Seems like perfection is the key to err success in A levels. Judging on what I had heard the past week, I realised that in almost every single subject achieving the 100 marks is the ultimate goal. A 98 is simply just not good enough.
Well, well seems like there is a huge task ahead of me.... Got to start studying harder... No doubt about that. The hope of securing a scholarship is the only thing that drives me on I guess..... Hope... something that always enlighten our hearts.... Perfection here I come!!!
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