Ah well, after another long hiatus (seems to be the norm for me these days haha), I have some thoughts to pen (more like type down) down. Just to make sure that future me remembers when this actually is, I am currently in the second semester of my second year and well I am trying not too stress myself out too much these days. But no matter what it is that I do, life seems to always have some weird funny way of triggering the long forgotten dormant feelings that is trapped deep down inside of me. The green eyed monster that is always there has surfaced again and this time well i managed to keep it at bay without much of a thought thanks to the company of my good friends who constantly bring joy into my life.
Even though I still doubt that they'll truly understand me, I have come to know all of them better through some long late night talks and all. Going to Jin's place has made me realised how close room mates can become when they spend lots of time in their cosy rooms together. But well, I don't think I'll ever achieve that milestone with my current room mate as well we don't really talk much about things let alone close-to-heart matters. But who knows right? Things will always change in just a matter of days although I am pretty skeptical about it.
Judging from current events, pretty soon this house will only have one lonely guy that will remain as single as anyone can be, that is me. Kind of depressing when you put it that way you know haha. But well, as I type away freely there are so many things that keep flooding my mine that I want to pen down to ensure that I don't forget about it. One of it would probably my strong desire to help kiddo friend ZH. I don't quite know how I should put my finger on it but this current situation has forced me to reconsider the whole point of going to university and to decide on what is wrong and what is right. But at the end of the day, I guess the realisation that I got about 5 years ago saying that there is no such thing as right or wrong it's just a matter of perspective comes into mind. Perhaps the whole point of coming to a university is more than just studying, and sometimes even though your priority is not on studies, you can still succeed in the future. At the end of it all, I guess we are all on a path to figure out our futures and yeah it's not going to be as straight-forward or easy as you think. Hopefully I will discover it sooner rather than later.
Well, the tiredness is really starting to kick in. The quest to find someone I can fully trust and hopefully can comprehend my situation continues I guess. Perhaps those people that are currently in my life will be the answer to that but for the time being I guess I should continue to be who I am and do what I usually do best that is kicking everyone else's asses in studies. Haha. Till next time then I guess hahahaha.
