Wednesday, November 14, 2012

Ponder...

It's pretty late right now. But before catching another episode of another meaningless yet addictive series I would just like to add a couple of words. Well, let's start off with the updating part. Long story short, I am currently in my first semester of the second year and got a new laptop, got a new magic deck courtesy of my friends. For some reason, my typing skills have deteriorated, so i wouldn't expect this post to be too long winded. Haha.

Alright let's jump straight to the point. Hmm let's see, entering the 2nd year in my course I kind of realise that i forgot the reason why i am studying this course. In a way, the motivation that i had last semester was kind of gone... Reading back the old posts reminded me of how much fire i have in me and well, the main reason of studying in a university. I guess, the changes I had this year that is staying with my friends, getting into the Dean's list has blinded me of my original intentions. Sometimes when you allow ego to get into your head you'll tend to revert back to your past self which is the competitive guy with an inflated ego.

Diving back into that old personality has certainly not brought any joy into my life instead I was constantly worrying about being the best in the class and inadvertently forgot the true purpose of learning. Well, luckily the mature part of me helped me to figure out that rough patch and well as long as I am enjoying learning I am pretty sure that getting into the Dean's list wouldn't be a problem. So, enjoy your life man stop worrying that's what i told myself.

I've been singing Home a lot lately because it kind of relates to me at an emotional level. Sometimes I still have the feeling of not being appreciated but hey, who are you to be entitled to that?

Finally, quite a number of my friends went to UK and  they seem to be enjoying their life there. Hmm, the dream of going there still lingers on in my mind but as they always say it's not a bed of roses over there.

I doubt that I'll have friends that will truly comprehend me in this university but who knows right? I love writing but certainly not writing reports. Creative and free writing, that's what i love. When someone really figured me out, I guess they will find this blog although the name is pretty long haha.

Just discussing the last issue here, I don't like to post pictures because I realise that whenever you post pictures  of you enjoying things somewhere you are kind of like propagating jealousy because not everyone has the financial or chronological capability of enjoying what you have. So, keep those photos to yourself as memories if you want to but please there really isn't a point in making it available to everyone you know on facebook. Well, this is just my humble opinion which is controversial as always.

Last but not least, having a week of study break, going to Sepang soon, hopefully will be a fun one, and well, till next time, I really should write more to enjoy my life. Instead of just storing everything inside the tiny brain of mine. But sometimes I don't remember what I was referring to last time so next time do write down whatever you mean Li. Lol.

Another single day,
Another time away,
I just wanna write to express my thoughts,
I miss you you you.
(Home tune)

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