The light at the end of the tunnel?

I don't know how things will finally end but one thing is for sure, I am garnering for a switch to some other university. Sounds like I am escaping from something right? haha.

I guess I just had enough of this horrendous environment..... Throughout the entire duration, I hadn't for once felt like going to the college. Primarily because I had nothing to look forward to other than misery. Can't seem to believe how it had really changed me. Before that, I was always looking forward to school, but right now it always seems like staying home is the better option.

Hopefully when I have switched if I ever do, I will see the better things of college. So, right now which college should I choose? Somehow my parents suggests that I go to Nottingham Uni. But right now got a lot of things to consider as it is not a direct entry into the college. They say to enter the September intake would need to see results or something like that, then they will see whether to accept or not.

Haiz right now thinking what if they don't accept??? Then got to endure another 2 semesters or suffering and pain and misery. T.T

Why is life so rough? How nice it would be if it was just a smooth plane to glide through.....

That's it for now.... Will blog more about it later......

Going Nuts

Arghh, the pressure is just too much my brain is about to ......BOOM! Splatter

Something like that to describe myself right now. Sounds scary right? Haha. Just my feelings only, no worries I am not going to implode.

But to be honest, the last few weeks was a little too much for me. At one point I felt like I was at the brink of insanity. At that moment, there was just a fine line separating me from that. Luckily I am still sane till now (although I am not sure about that). So let me know if you guys noticed that I am acting a little weird. haha.

Phew, the work load is immense and right now I am rushing to complete my assignments. Damn, things are just so tough right now as the group members I am working with now is just so different. Haiz....... Missing you guys so much right now. T.T.

Just ignore me if you think I am crazy haha. Where is the real me? At this moment I can't find it.... Living under an emotionless husk, that is what I am right now.... Empty......

Doing a little soul searching right now wonder when I can find it....... Don't think it is soon though.... I guess that's it for now, I 'll blog more when I can find the time.....

I am so emptyyyyy........