Hi Dear Future Self,
I know you will be rereading whatever that will be written there today so while I am going to try to describe all the sight, sound, thoughts that I am having right now because I know you would have forgotten what it would be like to be twenty four in due time.
I am listening to Sam Smith's songs while I am typing away with a nary care of the world. Time to look back at the past year considering that was my intention all along. So let's see, 2015, what a year it has been. Let's do this chronologically. It all started with the exam of the first semester of my final year. Did pretty badly in that, but didn't really affected me as I kind of secured results last year. Right after that, the final semester happened to put it that way. Haha. For some reason I was devoid of any emotions this time around, perhaps I have spent all of it up last year.
Almost fell in love again only to be woken up by a reality check and survived past that. I guess the term love sick comes from the literal meaning of it whereby love really can make you sick. Lying on the couch infatuated with the thought of love and what ifs, knowing that you will fall sick if that continued.
Past that, organised a big competition. Learnt a lot about people management there. Final exams came by, didn't have much to do. Instead I was hunting for jobs and going for interviews. Enjoyed every moment of it. When the actual exam did come and go, it really didn't matter much to me anymore and I just didn't care. It was already in the bag looong time ago.
Went for a graduation trip right after that, going down south from Malacca to JB back to Ipoh and Penang. What a trip it was, something that just involved us moving around without too much of a plan or hassle. Met the person that broke my heart again, but I was way past him this time.
Graduation!!! Didn't feel as great as imagined. But well, it's the rites of passage of this modern age and I am through! Ah well, no big deal, just a First Class. It's just a piece of paper, Finally understood what the IQ meant, Kind of in the few percent of humans, no wonder people don't understand most of the stuff that I want to discuss about. As petty as ever. Kind of hard to find people that can relate and will want to date me haha. Too deep.
After much contemplation, decided on a job that had the opportunity to travel around the world. Looking back, this year has kind of been great for me with plenty of new experiences. Come early November, finally went to America. The flight was exhausting, but at the end of the day the trip was worth it I guess. Experienced the american culture and stayed in a pretty posh hotel got to know a couple of awesome people.
September, the month where my denial ended. Had a couple of dates and chats and started to understand this world better. My categorising skills start to come in handy. No doubt, I still have plenty to learn, but it's a start.
December, the end of the year. Went to stay in the five star hotel that I was standing in front of wondering when I will ever be able stay in that in July. I guess life really has a knack of giving you what you wish for haha. That's why people always say becareful of what you wish for.
Came to the realisation that there is no such thing as a perfect job. Everyone of us has a couple of things we prioritise in life as long as the job that you are holding on to allows you to accomplish that, it is worth doing for the time being.
It's a pretty brief summary of whatever that has happened over the past year. Truth be told, I have learnt so so so much over the past year. I have learnt to read people better, learnt to utilise my senses better, learnt to love myself even more.
The ending questions to my future self, who will I fall in love with next? Where will I end up working and staying? Will I ever marry? Will I have kids? Will I be here?
Whatever it is, I hope you are living a great life as you are reading this. Even if you are not, remember to appreciate the little things around you because those are the packets of joy that will carry you through. I love you and Happy New Year!
