Yehhh, yet another posting after a meaningful trip. Well, after going for another 3 days 2 nights trip at the northern part of my beloved country, I am super duper tired right now. Never thought writing a blog would be so incredibly tiring. I have so much to blog about yet so little energy... Arghhh...
I'll cut it short then, so let's start with the first day. As usual, me, SY and YS took the midnight bus to the north and well, this time around the bus turned up pretty late and well, I broke a little sweat while waiting for it. And without any doubt the 2 of them were bickering all day long.... Children...
The notable difference was probably YS had a love interest even though I suspect that this is just a cover up. I usually am good at predicting people's intention and stuff haha, so maybe this is right after all.
So, when we arrived, ZH picked us up from the bus station and the moment we arrived at his house we went straight to sleep. You know, we were just tired...
I think it was about 9am, YS started waking us up, but the silly thing was that, he tried waking us up with the lights off, and well unsurprisingly we find him pretty annoying because that's just what happens to people who wake others up. But to be honest, I am starting to be bothered by his sulking attitude. If there is one thing that I hate the most it would be being taken for granted and right now I have a feeling that he is doing that and obviously I have every right to feel a little annoyed by his childish behaviour. Anyways enough of that.
So, we went to the Escape theme park after that, and boy it was such a challenge. Who would have expected such an exhausting day when we first walked in. Clearly unfit, I huffed and puffed all the way when I was pulling the sliding seat uphill. Next time, do remember to get yourself up to shape before entering any of these theme parks or your money will go to waste. We went for the obstacle course after that, and to supposedly save time, we decided to go straight up to level 2. Challenging was the word to descirbe the obstacle courses that we went through but I am proud to say that all of us completed level 2! It was funny though to see some people nearly fainting while trying to complete them and one girl totally freaking out by the height of the course. Haha.
The flying fox was quite fun, but the landing part can sometimes to a pain in the well almost everywhere because there is a freakishly high tendency of your back facing the net that you were supposed to grab. All in all I had a couple of scratches and thinned skin probably from all the rope grabbing and tree climbing and also a very painful thigh from the mid-air suspension. Haha. Luckily I didn't have my crotches squeezed up too badly, it happened only once when I didn't tighten the harness properly during the tree-climbing and boy it hurts.
I am going to stop blogging for now but there is more to come another day. I stumbled across a couple of things this time around, although I shouldn't be snooping around other people's stuff but well, I did and I found the outdated blog of his haha. Evil me... Anyways I hate the fact that he is constantly looking for me to help it's like can you not expect me to help you all the time? I hate the feeling of expectations you know and I just hate to be told what to do...
Thursday, May 30, 2013
Sunday, May 19, 2013
The End of the 2nd Year
Greetings people,
After a gruelling and crazy not to mention extremely crammed exam period, I am finally free yet again. I am just going to use the 'free' word loosely this time around because ah well, my first internship is coming up pretty soon and its freaking 4 months long. Thinking about all the stories that I have to tell, I guess it is very likely that I'll have to split all of that into a couple of posts.
Alright let's start off with my exams afterthought. This time, due to the extremely insufficient amount of time that was allocated to us (it's just 1 week of study break), I think I did pretty badly and there is even a slight perhaps moderate possibility of me losing my 25%. But it has all passed and there really isn't any good thinking too much about it anymore, I guess the lesson to take from this is probably that I shouldn't over indulged myself in overtly childish act for instance, dota-ing almost every single week when I am with my impulsive yet fun housemates. OH well, it's over so let's just keep our fingers crossed and hope for the best.
So, let's get to the chase. The main reason that I am spending some time writing this post. Looking back on the past year, it made me realised that by living together with my housemates, I get to learn a little more about all of them. Let's start with the one that we have been gossiping so much about. The totally immature, SY. I guess we can't really blame him entirely on his immaturity as we didn't really do much to help him attain the mature mind that can really help in diffusing his volatile girlfriend. Just to keep this into my archive, a really big fight occurred during my stay in Pelangi that involved a couple of my friends and from the looks of it, it all blew up due to the accumulation of little things that some people couldn't and wouldn't tolerate. I don't want to put the blame on anyone in particular, but I guess everyone played a part in the lead up to this disastrous explosion of temper.
After giving this whole episode a very deep thought, I realised that one thing that I couldn't quite live with is the fact that a guy can totally give up on his identity just to please the girl that he supposedly loves. Perhaps it takes a very long and arduous time for anyone to find their own identity, but it is a very important process that none of us can afford to ignore. Your identity is the thing that makes you who you are and nobody should ever take that away from you. I am never supportive of an early relationship because emotionally fragile people can get scarred forever if unprecedented things happen.
In life, don't ever let anyone take away the noble values that you have because we must always remember to change for the better and not for the worst. As friends, we are supposed to neutralised those unhealthy habits by constantly reminding each other of our flaws and not allow those bad and toxic habits to fester and turn us into monsters that we one day can't recognise. In his situation, he never should have left her to constantly throw a fit whenever she is not happy as that is just going to morph her into an uncontrollable beast in near future. And one definite thing is that he needs to grow up and fast. If he is constantly dictated, one day he will wake up and realised that there is nothing left of him in him and he has become her. As we all know one of the main excuse that one use for a breakup is that the other person has changed and is no longer the person that they know anymore. I am contemplating of talking to him about this but I am pretty sure that I can't do it fluently in chinese but at the end of the day I am just going to do my best.
Time for my lunch, I'll write more about how I got my internship next time as well as the happenings in my 2nd semester and whatever is it that I'll be thinking about. I need glucose now! Till next time then. :)
'Your identity is all you have, never lose or change it for anyone else, or one day you will wake up not knowing the person that you are in.'
After a gruelling and crazy not to mention extremely crammed exam period, I am finally free yet again. I am just going to use the 'free' word loosely this time around because ah well, my first internship is coming up pretty soon and its freaking 4 months long. Thinking about all the stories that I have to tell, I guess it is very likely that I'll have to split all of that into a couple of posts.
Alright let's start off with my exams afterthought. This time, due to the extremely insufficient amount of time that was allocated to us (it's just 1 week of study break), I think I did pretty badly and there is even a slight perhaps moderate possibility of me losing my 25%. But it has all passed and there really isn't any good thinking too much about it anymore, I guess the lesson to take from this is probably that I shouldn't over indulged myself in overtly childish act for instance, dota-ing almost every single week when I am with my impulsive yet fun housemates. OH well, it's over so let's just keep our fingers crossed and hope for the best.
So, let's get to the chase. The main reason that I am spending some time writing this post. Looking back on the past year, it made me realised that by living together with my housemates, I get to learn a little more about all of them. Let's start with the one that we have been gossiping so much about. The totally immature, SY. I guess we can't really blame him entirely on his immaturity as we didn't really do much to help him attain the mature mind that can really help in diffusing his volatile girlfriend. Just to keep this into my archive, a really big fight occurred during my stay in Pelangi that involved a couple of my friends and from the looks of it, it all blew up due to the accumulation of little things that some people couldn't and wouldn't tolerate. I don't want to put the blame on anyone in particular, but I guess everyone played a part in the lead up to this disastrous explosion of temper.
After giving this whole episode a very deep thought, I realised that one thing that I couldn't quite live with is the fact that a guy can totally give up on his identity just to please the girl that he supposedly loves. Perhaps it takes a very long and arduous time for anyone to find their own identity, but it is a very important process that none of us can afford to ignore. Your identity is the thing that makes you who you are and nobody should ever take that away from you. I am never supportive of an early relationship because emotionally fragile people can get scarred forever if unprecedented things happen.
In life, don't ever let anyone take away the noble values that you have because we must always remember to change for the better and not for the worst. As friends, we are supposed to neutralised those unhealthy habits by constantly reminding each other of our flaws and not allow those bad and toxic habits to fester and turn us into monsters that we one day can't recognise. In his situation, he never should have left her to constantly throw a fit whenever she is not happy as that is just going to morph her into an uncontrollable beast in near future. And one definite thing is that he needs to grow up and fast. If he is constantly dictated, one day he will wake up and realised that there is nothing left of him in him and he has become her. As we all know one of the main excuse that one use for a breakup is that the other person has changed and is no longer the person that they know anymore. I am contemplating of talking to him about this but I am pretty sure that I can't do it fluently in chinese but at the end of the day I am just going to do my best.
Time for my lunch, I'll write more about how I got my internship next time as well as the happenings in my 2nd semester and whatever is it that I'll be thinking about. I need glucose now! Till next time then. :)
'Your identity is all you have, never lose or change it for anyone else, or one day you will wake up not knowing the person that you are in.'
Friday, March 1, 2013
First Posting in Pelangi haha
Ah well, after another long hiatus (seems to be the norm for me these days haha), I have some thoughts to pen (more like type down) down. Just to make sure that future me remembers when this actually is, I am currently in the second semester of my second year and well I am trying not too stress myself out too much these days. But no matter what it is that I do, life seems to always have some weird funny way of triggering the long forgotten dormant feelings that is trapped deep down inside of me. The green eyed monster that is always there has surfaced again and this time well i managed to keep it at bay without much of a thought thanks to the company of my good friends who constantly bring joy into my life.
Even though I still doubt that they'll truly understand me, I have come to know all of them better through some long late night talks and all. Going to Jin's place has made me realised how close room mates can become when they spend lots of time in their cosy rooms together. But well, I don't think I'll ever achieve that milestone with my current room mate as well we don't really talk much about things let alone close-to-heart matters. But who knows right? Things will always change in just a matter of days although I am pretty skeptical about it.
Judging from current events, pretty soon this house will only have one lonely guy that will remain as single as anyone can be, that is me. Kind of depressing when you put it that way you know haha. But well, as I type away freely there are so many things that keep flooding my mine that I want to pen down to ensure that I don't forget about it. One of it would probably my strong desire to help kiddo friend ZH. I don't quite know how I should put my finger on it but this current situation has forced me to reconsider the whole point of going to university and to decide on what is wrong and what is right. But at the end of the day, I guess the realisation that I got about 5 years ago saying that there is no such thing as right or wrong it's just a matter of perspective comes into mind. Perhaps the whole point of coming to a university is more than just studying, and sometimes even though your priority is not on studies, you can still succeed in the future. At the end of it all, I guess we are all on a path to figure out our futures and yeah it's not going to be as straight-forward or easy as you think. Hopefully I will discover it sooner rather than later.
Well, the tiredness is really starting to kick in. The quest to find someone I can fully trust and hopefully can comprehend my situation continues I guess. Perhaps those people that are currently in my life will be the answer to that but for the time being I guess I should continue to be who I am and do what I usually do best that is kicking everyone else's asses in studies. Haha. Till next time then I guess hahahaha.
Even though I still doubt that they'll truly understand me, I have come to know all of them better through some long late night talks and all. Going to Jin's place has made me realised how close room mates can become when they spend lots of time in their cosy rooms together. But well, I don't think I'll ever achieve that milestone with my current room mate as well we don't really talk much about things let alone close-to-heart matters. But who knows right? Things will always change in just a matter of days although I am pretty skeptical about it.
Judging from current events, pretty soon this house will only have one lonely guy that will remain as single as anyone can be, that is me. Kind of depressing when you put it that way you know haha. But well, as I type away freely there are so many things that keep flooding my mine that I want to pen down to ensure that I don't forget about it. One of it would probably my strong desire to help kiddo friend ZH. I don't quite know how I should put my finger on it but this current situation has forced me to reconsider the whole point of going to university and to decide on what is wrong and what is right. But at the end of the day, I guess the realisation that I got about 5 years ago saying that there is no such thing as right or wrong it's just a matter of perspective comes into mind. Perhaps the whole point of coming to a university is more than just studying, and sometimes even though your priority is not on studies, you can still succeed in the future. At the end of it all, I guess we are all on a path to figure out our futures and yeah it's not going to be as straight-forward or easy as you think. Hopefully I will discover it sooner rather than later.
Well, the tiredness is really starting to kick in. The quest to find someone I can fully trust and hopefully can comprehend my situation continues I guess. Perhaps those people that are currently in my life will be the answer to that but for the time being I guess I should continue to be who I am and do what I usually do best that is kicking everyone else's asses in studies. Haha. Till next time then I guess hahahaha.
Wednesday, November 14, 2012
Ponder...
It's pretty late right now. But before catching another episode of another meaningless yet addictive series I would just like to add a couple of words. Well, let's start off with the updating part. Long story short, I am currently in my first semester of the second year and got a new laptop, got a new magic deck courtesy of my friends. For some reason, my typing skills have deteriorated, so i wouldn't expect this post to be too long winded. Haha.
Alright let's jump straight to the point. Hmm let's see, entering the 2nd year in my course I kind of realise that i forgot the reason why i am studying this course. In a way, the motivation that i had last semester was kind of gone... Reading back the old posts reminded me of how much fire i have in me and well, the main reason of studying in a university. I guess, the changes I had this year that is staying with my friends, getting into the Dean's list has blinded me of my original intentions. Sometimes when you allow ego to get into your head you'll tend to revert back to your past self which is the competitive guy with an inflated ego.
Diving back into that old personality has certainly not brought any joy into my life instead I was constantly worrying about being the best in the class and inadvertently forgot the true purpose of learning. Well, luckily the mature part of me helped me to figure out that rough patch and well as long as I am enjoying learning I am pretty sure that getting into the Dean's list wouldn't be a problem. So, enjoy your life man stop worrying that's what i told myself.
I've been singing Home a lot lately because it kind of relates to me at an emotional level. Sometimes I still have the feeling of not being appreciated but hey, who are you to be entitled to that?
Finally, quite a number of my friends went to UK and they seem to be enjoying their life there. Hmm, the dream of going there still lingers on in my mind but as they always say it's not a bed of roses over there.
I doubt that I'll have friends that will truly comprehend me in this university but who knows right? I love writing but certainly not writing reports. Creative and free writing, that's what i love. When someone really figured me out, I guess they will find this blog although the name is pretty long haha.
Just discussing the last issue here, I don't like to post pictures because I realise that whenever you post pictures of you enjoying things somewhere you are kind of like propagating jealousy because not everyone has the financial or chronological capability of enjoying what you have. So, keep those photos to yourself as memories if you want to but please there really isn't a point in making it available to everyone you know on facebook. Well, this is just my humble opinion which is controversial as always.
Last but not least, having a week of study break, going to Sepang soon, hopefully will be a fun one, and well, till next time, I really should write more to enjoy my life. Instead of just storing everything inside the tiny brain of mine. But sometimes I don't remember what I was referring to last time so next time do write down whatever you mean Li. Lol.
Another single day,
Another time away,
I just wanna write to express my thoughts,
I miss you you you.
(Home tune)
Alright let's jump straight to the point. Hmm let's see, entering the 2nd year in my course I kind of realise that i forgot the reason why i am studying this course. In a way, the motivation that i had last semester was kind of gone... Reading back the old posts reminded me of how much fire i have in me and well, the main reason of studying in a university. I guess, the changes I had this year that is staying with my friends, getting into the Dean's list has blinded me of my original intentions. Sometimes when you allow ego to get into your head you'll tend to revert back to your past self which is the competitive guy with an inflated ego.
Diving back into that old personality has certainly not brought any joy into my life instead I was constantly worrying about being the best in the class and inadvertently forgot the true purpose of learning. Well, luckily the mature part of me helped me to figure out that rough patch and well as long as I am enjoying learning I am pretty sure that getting into the Dean's list wouldn't be a problem. So, enjoy your life man stop worrying that's what i told myself.
I've been singing Home a lot lately because it kind of relates to me at an emotional level. Sometimes I still have the feeling of not being appreciated but hey, who are you to be entitled to that?
Finally, quite a number of my friends went to UK and they seem to be enjoying their life there. Hmm, the dream of going there still lingers on in my mind but as they always say it's not a bed of roses over there.
I doubt that I'll have friends that will truly comprehend me in this university but who knows right? I love writing but certainly not writing reports. Creative and free writing, that's what i love. When someone really figured me out, I guess they will find this blog although the name is pretty long haha.
Just discussing the last issue here, I don't like to post pictures because I realise that whenever you post pictures of you enjoying things somewhere you are kind of like propagating jealousy because not everyone has the financial or chronological capability of enjoying what you have. So, keep those photos to yourself as memories if you want to but please there really isn't a point in making it available to everyone you know on facebook. Well, this is just my humble opinion which is controversial as always.
Last but not least, having a week of study break, going to Sepang soon, hopefully will be a fun one, and well, till next time, I really should write more to enjoy my life. Instead of just storing everything inside the tiny brain of mine. But sometimes I don't remember what I was referring to last time so next time do write down whatever you mean Li. Lol.
Another single day,
Another time away,
I just wanna write to express my thoughts,
I miss you you you.
(Home tune)
Sunday, May 6, 2012
Self reflection of a mature guy
Wow, it's been more than a year since I last checked in here. If you hadn't already know, a lot of things has happened in that long hiatus from blogging of mine. Well, I am pretty sure you are wondering what stories I am going to tell this time, but truth is, I am just going to briefly blog about the stories. The main emphasis on today's blog would certainly be the experience and things which I have learned this past year.
As I type freely away... I hum a familiar tune one which I forgot about a long time ago, the nostalgic tune of 'For Real' of 'gensomaden saiyuki'... It just clears my mine every time that tune plays in my mine. It's just so relaxing to hear that.
So, where do I start? Hmm, well I guess I should just update you guys with some information on where I am right now. After struggling with the demons within myself, I have finally realised the true meaning of going to a university as well as attaining a scholarship. I used to always think that I have to go to an overseas university to attain great education, but never did I realise that it doesn't matter which university you go to, the most important thing is that you learn as much as you can during this 4 short years and in order to make yourself a better person.
I always asked myself what course should I enrol into? But little did I realise that the answer is never easily found by anyone. I used to be always envious of my friends who seemed to choose their courses so easily as if they knew what they wanted all along and the pressure that I felt was really great back then. Bearing the competitive nature in me I made a hasty decision simply because I wanted to stand out from the crowd. Back then, I always knew that the course that I could never be certain about the course I chose even after my A levels. Looking back from this point now, I realised something which is that you can never be certain about what you want until you have seen something which you are truly interested in. Something which I have recently just found.
Undeniably, spending one year staying on campus is probably one good choice that I have made. The deprivation from family comfort made my appreciate my home even more and also the sacrifices which my parents have made for me. Which brings me to the scholarship hunting journey which I embarked upon years ago. I chose a longer path to graduation to prevent a future filled with regrets and what ifs, and till this day I stand by my decision because I know that in the future I won't question and beat myself up over the path not taken... After applying to a number of scholarships, and attended quite a number of interviews, I still fall short of achieving my dreams of securing a scholarship. But then I asked myself, what's the point of getting one? It was then I realised that the reason I got so upset back then was because of the shame caused by my own ego. Once I lost that, it doesn't matter anymore whether I get one or not. Yeah true, lifting the burden of my parents is still my number one priority but I asked myself why torture yourself when you can't do anything about it? Even if you have failed so many interviews the main thing is that you have risen stronger after falling down so many times. The lessons and the experience which you have gained are priceless it doesn't matter if you don't have the scholarship because in a way a scholarship is also another term of securing a loan, it's just a better way of phrasing it. As one old Chinese proverb once said 'talents are hard to find, but people who can spot talents are even harder to find'.
Oh yeah, about the campus life which I had, it was truly awesome. I have met so many wonderful friends and they have taught me so much about life. The usual naive me was always looking for fun fun and fun. But well, one good friend of mine taught me the importance of looking every situation from all angles. Even though I find that he tends to over think too much, it's really been interesting trying to analyse things like Sherlock Holmes for once. As the saying goes, you can't live with them, you can't live without them. I really understood the meaning of this phrase since coming here. It doesn't really matter if you don't talk to your best buddy for a few years or even months, because if you guys are really true friends, the moment you meet up again, you'll talk like you have never been apart before. Which is truly remarkable. Over here, I have friends coming from different backgrounds and that is the thing which sets the room alight, bright with different colours. But there are always people with ulterior motives right? Haha, every story has it's antagonist as we always say. Some people always think that they are superior than others just because they think that they have a lot of experience but the truth always is that they don't know anything about other before they start bragging in front of people. As always, I hate people who boast haha.
Some people are always not punctual taking things for granted, needing you only when the exams or assignments are due but hey life's like that. For every situation, I learned to deal with it with a calm heart. It's truly pleasing when you are at the centre of attention but well, everything has its limit. Tolerating it is the best foot forward.
Truth is I am really really tired and I have probably forgotten about most of the things which I wanted to write just now. Oh yeah, the Hong Kong drama which I just watched it was really nice because I felt I could relate to that story haha. At the end of the day, I told myself to stop trying to compete with others, just be the best you can be and learn as much as you possibly can because in the future, you are not going to be judged by the number of As you got rather it's on how much knowledge you have acquired. Another scholarship interview coming up, exams as well, and also well moving on to the next stage in life (you know what I mean).
As I mature into a fully grown adult,
I stare back down the past,
and realised how much I could have told myself,
but that's not something that I'll do,
because the decisions and the mistakes that we make in the past,
makes us who we are today,
and that's the very reason that people should never be judged by their past,
as the past makes them who they are today,
and who they are today is the one that should be judged.
This is all for today, I'll post more some other time, perhaps a few months later or even a year on who knows when I'll write again but one thing is for sure, I truly enjoyed the time I spent writing so freely without any restrictions without any format to adhere to... Times ahead are truly interesting...
As I type freely away... I hum a familiar tune one which I forgot about a long time ago, the nostalgic tune of 'For Real' of 'gensomaden saiyuki'... It just clears my mine every time that tune plays in my mine. It's just so relaxing to hear that.
So, where do I start? Hmm, well I guess I should just update you guys with some information on where I am right now. After struggling with the demons within myself, I have finally realised the true meaning of going to a university as well as attaining a scholarship. I used to always think that I have to go to an overseas university to attain great education, but never did I realise that it doesn't matter which university you go to, the most important thing is that you learn as much as you can during this 4 short years and in order to make yourself a better person.
I always asked myself what course should I enrol into? But little did I realise that the answer is never easily found by anyone. I used to be always envious of my friends who seemed to choose their courses so easily as if they knew what they wanted all along and the pressure that I felt was really great back then. Bearing the competitive nature in me I made a hasty decision simply because I wanted to stand out from the crowd. Back then, I always knew that the course that I could never be certain about the course I chose even after my A levels. Looking back from this point now, I realised something which is that you can never be certain about what you want until you have seen something which you are truly interested in. Something which I have recently just found.
Undeniably, spending one year staying on campus is probably one good choice that I have made. The deprivation from family comfort made my appreciate my home even more and also the sacrifices which my parents have made for me. Which brings me to the scholarship hunting journey which I embarked upon years ago. I chose a longer path to graduation to prevent a future filled with regrets and what ifs, and till this day I stand by my decision because I know that in the future I won't question and beat myself up over the path not taken... After applying to a number of scholarships, and attended quite a number of interviews, I still fall short of achieving my dreams of securing a scholarship. But then I asked myself, what's the point of getting one? It was then I realised that the reason I got so upset back then was because of the shame caused by my own ego. Once I lost that, it doesn't matter anymore whether I get one or not. Yeah true, lifting the burden of my parents is still my number one priority but I asked myself why torture yourself when you can't do anything about it? Even if you have failed so many interviews the main thing is that you have risen stronger after falling down so many times. The lessons and the experience which you have gained are priceless it doesn't matter if you don't have the scholarship because in a way a scholarship is also another term of securing a loan, it's just a better way of phrasing it. As one old Chinese proverb once said 'talents are hard to find, but people who can spot talents are even harder to find'.
Oh yeah, about the campus life which I had, it was truly awesome. I have met so many wonderful friends and they have taught me so much about life. The usual naive me was always looking for fun fun and fun. But well, one good friend of mine taught me the importance of looking every situation from all angles. Even though I find that he tends to over think too much, it's really been interesting trying to analyse things like Sherlock Holmes for once. As the saying goes, you can't live with them, you can't live without them. I really understood the meaning of this phrase since coming here. It doesn't really matter if you don't talk to your best buddy for a few years or even months, because if you guys are really true friends, the moment you meet up again, you'll talk like you have never been apart before. Which is truly remarkable. Over here, I have friends coming from different backgrounds and that is the thing which sets the room alight, bright with different colours. But there are always people with ulterior motives right? Haha, every story has it's antagonist as we always say. Some people always think that they are superior than others just because they think that they have a lot of experience but the truth always is that they don't know anything about other before they start bragging in front of people. As always, I hate people who boast haha.
Some people are always not punctual taking things for granted, needing you only when the exams or assignments are due but hey life's like that. For every situation, I learned to deal with it with a calm heart. It's truly pleasing when you are at the centre of attention but well, everything has its limit. Tolerating it is the best foot forward.
Truth is I am really really tired and I have probably forgotten about most of the things which I wanted to write just now. Oh yeah, the Hong Kong drama which I just watched it was really nice because I felt I could relate to that story haha. At the end of the day, I told myself to stop trying to compete with others, just be the best you can be and learn as much as you possibly can because in the future, you are not going to be judged by the number of As you got rather it's on how much knowledge you have acquired. Another scholarship interview coming up, exams as well, and also well moving on to the next stage in life (you know what I mean).
As I mature into a fully grown adult,
I stare back down the past,
and realised how much I could have told myself,
but that's not something that I'll do,
because the decisions and the mistakes that we make in the past,
makes us who we are today,
and that's the very reason that people should never be judged by their past,
as the past makes them who they are today,
and who they are today is the one that should be judged.
This is all for today, I'll post more some other time, perhaps a few months later or even a year on who knows when I'll write again but one thing is for sure, I truly enjoyed the time I spent writing so freely without any restrictions without any format to adhere to... Times ahead are truly interesting...
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Youtube funny videos
I just found out that youtube is actually not as boring as I used to think. Recently I stumbled across some very funny videos by a guy called KevJumba I think. I mean I find the videos he made freakingly funny. Not that I am promoting his videos but I never knew that youtube actually contains such videos. Haha.
Honestly, his video are really awesome as they help me destress after a day of examination - I just found out about his videos and I am having exams right now. The stuff that he talks about are just so typical, but the way he acts and says it out makes even the most common and predictable things funny. Haha.
I guess enough of me promoting his videos but really, you guys should really watch it. After a stressful day, a good laugh towards the end of it really helps.
Honestly, his video are really awesome as they help me destress after a day of examination - I just found out about his videos and I am having exams right now. The stuff that he talks about are just so typical, but the way he acts and says it out makes even the most common and predictable things funny. Haha.
I guess enough of me promoting his videos but really, you guys should really watch it. After a stressful day, a good laugh towards the end of it really helps.
Failure... A very painful thing to bear...
Perhaps I am just not as good as I think I am... Recently 3 of my applications to scholarship and universities were rejected. Shell rejected me outright, Cambridge rejected me after making me wait anxiously for 4 days thanks to their 'we are going to send you your results tomorrow' mail, and imperial just rejected me as well by offering me a biomedical engineering course which is like err.... The reason given - I am just not good enough I think. Alright, they didn't really put it that way but they might as well do that. I mean what's the difference right?
Honestly, I thought I am more mature right now and failures are easier to deal with. But it seems like no matter how many times I fail, each failure seems to be more painful than the last. Arghhhh, what is the matter with me? Why can't I get into any of the top universities? Am I just stupid? Or dumb? This is just so frustrating!!!!
Right now my options are really getting narrower and narrower and at the moment, I am really getting no where without any concrete offer from realistic universities. Sad isn't it? Haiz. I really hate to pity myself because it is just pathetic! You hear me pathetic! So just get over these and start working to improve yourself as a whole! Its not over yet. I am going to get something by the end of the day. I will!!!
Sorry peeps, this is turning out to be a self-conversing blog. But not many people read it anyway, so...
Anyways, I really have got to pull things together and just improve myself. Maybe I should work on my self-presenting skills and my English which is horrendous. Well, right now my A levels exam is going to finish next week and after that I have got to work even harder to secure at least a good scholarship and a good university placing. Singapore is my main target but who knows right? Not looking too far ahead though. Till next time...
Honestly, I thought I am more mature right now and failures are easier to deal with. But it seems like no matter how many times I fail, each failure seems to be more painful than the last. Arghhhh, what is the matter with me? Why can't I get into any of the top universities? Am I just stupid? Or dumb? This is just so frustrating!!!!
Right now my options are really getting narrower and narrower and at the moment, I am really getting no where without any concrete offer from realistic universities. Sad isn't it? Haiz. I really hate to pity myself because it is just pathetic! You hear me pathetic! So just get over these and start working to improve yourself as a whole! Its not over yet. I am going to get something by the end of the day. I will!!!
Sorry peeps, this is turning out to be a self-conversing blog. But not many people read it anyway, so...
Anyways, I really have got to pull things together and just improve myself. Maybe I should work on my self-presenting skills and my English which is horrendous. Well, right now my A levels exam is going to finish next week and after that I have got to work even harder to secure at least a good scholarship and a good university placing. Singapore is my main target but who knows right? Not looking too far ahead though. Till next time...
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