Exam looming...

Wow, can't really believe it I guess, it has been such a lo0nnnng time since I last updated my blog. haha. Lazy plus insufficient time make the excuse.

Alright, right now I am going to have my exam next Monday, which is pretty soon. Well, things aren't exactly as easy as I thought. Especially the biology paper. Can't seem to pen down the right answer all the time. Haiz. So frustrating you know...

One of the reasons is probably because the paper isn't as straight forward as SPM. Think, think, think that is what they want me to do. However hard I try, I just can't figure it out. Why?? I kept asking myself, perhaps I should ask myself more of that during the exam then I will be able to do it haha.

Whatever it is, I'll just do my best and wait for the results... My aim? Sky high as usual. Hope to achieve it though. But with my current state, seems doubtful.

To all my friends who are having their exams, Goodluck guys and gals. ^.^

Got to go, till next time................

A Break.....

A break phew.... Kind of relief about having a break after studying for consecutive 12 weeks. Never had I thought that 9 months down the road my destiny would turn out to be so different. Yeah, like I had mentioned a thousand times before life is indeed unpredictable....

But it is the unpredictability that makes it interesting, that keeps us guessing what would be coming next....

A levels might be easier than what I had experienced before but that also means that the going will only get tougher from here. Seems like perfection is the key to err success in A levels. Judging on what I had heard the past week, I realised that in almost every single subject achieving the 100 marks is the ultimate goal. A 98 is simply just not good enough.

Well, well seems like there is a huge task ahead of me.... Got to start studying harder... No doubt about that. The hope of securing a scholarship is the only thing that drives me on I guess..... Hope... something that always enlighten our hearts.... Perfection here I come!!!

Finally out of it!

After 10 weeks studying at UTAR I am out of it!! This Wednesday I just went to MCKL to study A levels. After considering all my options I have decided that A levels would be the way to go in keeping my options open.

It just feels so good right now. No reports to worry about, no assignment to stress about, phew this is such a free flowing life I am having right now. Truth be told, A levels seem a little easy currently haha.

Going to this college is so much more easy as I only need to take the KTM to KL Sentral and have a 10 minutes walk to my college. Besides that, right now I finally am able to participate in co-curricular activities..... I have been longing for it after 10 weeks of complete boredom....

The theme of 'study,study,study' is kind of over right now. Although the system in this college kind of mirror the secondary school, I feel that this style suits me a lot. Really looking forward to the next few weeks, haha.

My old self is getting back again. I am looking forward to each trip to school. This feeling is so pleasant to have I guess...

That's it for now, I am kind of looking forward to the Merdeka holidays, I am sure we will be able to meet up haha.

Frustration yet again....

Can't believe it......... Arghhh whatever assignment that I am doing now is just so me. I am the dictator of every single thing. It is just so not the purpose of doing an assignment. Haiz.

All the stuff that had been sent to me is just so messed up and so not cohesive that I had to edit almost every single part. Hey, looking back you guys were just awesome in doing the assignments. Kind of regretting that I didn't appreciate your efforts back then. haha.

I guess that is life, you can't expect everything to be perfect. True, not every member is bad, but still the bad ones are just too much to cope with. One phrase I learnt in Form 3 still etched deeply in my mind, ' things don't always go the way you want it to be, but you have to make the best out of the things turned out.'

I just have to best use whatever that I possess and turn it into something that I deem to be the best. Then I could have look back and say, I have tried my very best. Although I am trying hard not to be a lone crusader, but I guess sometimes I just have to do things myself.

I have learnt something truly important the last 6 months, that is don't expect others to give you a hand all the time, you just have to rely on your own abilities and capabilities. Only then, you can be completely independent......

It has been a long while since we yumcha together, maybe we should have it during the upcoming school holidays, guys please make yourself available during that period!

I guess that is it for now..... I feel like I am venting my anger over here.:p Hope you guys don't get bored reading my frustration all the time. haha.

The light at the end of the tunnel?

I don't know how things will finally end but one thing is for sure, I am garnering for a switch to some other university. Sounds like I am escaping from something right? haha.

I guess I just had enough of this horrendous environment..... Throughout the entire duration, I hadn't for once felt like going to the college. Primarily because I had nothing to look forward to other than misery. Can't seem to believe how it had really changed me. Before that, I was always looking forward to school, but right now it always seems like staying home is the better option.

Hopefully when I have switched if I ever do, I will see the better things of college. So, right now which college should I choose? Somehow my parents suggests that I go to Nottingham Uni. But right now got a lot of things to consider as it is not a direct entry into the college. They say to enter the September intake would need to see results or something like that, then they will see whether to accept or not.

Haiz right now thinking what if they don't accept??? Then got to endure another 2 semesters or suffering and pain and misery. T.T

Why is life so rough? How nice it would be if it was just a smooth plane to glide through.....

That's it for now.... Will blog more about it later......

Going Nuts

Arghh, the pressure is just too much my brain is about to ......BOOM! Splatter

Something like that to describe myself right now. Sounds scary right? Haha. Just my feelings only, no worries I am not going to implode.

But to be honest, the last few weeks was a little too much for me. At one point I felt like I was at the brink of insanity. At that moment, there was just a fine line separating me from that. Luckily I am still sane till now (although I am not sure about that). So let me know if you guys noticed that I am acting a little weird. haha.

Phew, the work load is immense and right now I am rushing to complete my assignments. Damn, things are just so tough right now as the group members I am working with now is just so different. Haiz....... Missing you guys so much right now. T.T.

Just ignore me if you think I am crazy haha. Where is the real me? At this moment I can't find it.... Living under an emotionless husk, that is what I am right now.... Empty......

Doing a little soul searching right now wonder when I can find it....... Don't think it is soon though.... I guess that's it for now, I 'll blog more when I can find the time.....

I am so emptyyyyy........

Isolated......

Ever since I set foot on this university, things are just not quite the same anymore. Truth is, I really miss my friends.... Miss the moments where we share jokes and our thoughts....

Over here I feel pretty lonely, as there isn't anyone who I can share my thoughts with. Everyone is so alien, I don't really feel 'home' whenever I am there. It just doesn't feel right.... How I wish things would change, but I guess I just have to find some ways to adapt to it.

It is tough, and I don't like it. I don't get that happy feeling most of the time... Wonder where the cheerful me went... Haiz, that is just a part of life I guess....

Hey guys I really look forward to yumcha with you guys le. Quick set a date so we can have an outing!