Ah well, recently I just realised something while I was spending time with my college mates... Money does seem to be a factor while hanging out with them... It always like they want to go to some fancy place but I couldn't afford it and I kind of feel bad and out of place...
Most of the time when they talk about stuff, it is always about something that involves material that you will need money to buy. Since I am not exactly the type that have the money to buy stuff or even dream of buying them, I too always feel out of place in these conversations...
Kind of sad when you think about it... I am just not that kind of person that want to buy stuff all the time to keep myself happy. Honestly, I like to do activities that doesn't involve money at all or minimal amount of it if possible. Well, its not that I find them annoying, as I do learn about something here and there, but I really wish that I could find someone whom I can share my passion with...
I guess those kind of friends are hard to come by... From the looks of it, its the environment that we live in that causes our mentality to be totally different... Well, I just hate to spend money on something as I always regret whatever that I buy sooner or later. Haha. That's why I have never even spend a single dime on any electronic device... Can't believe it right? Haha.
Anyways, I just got the interview from Cambridge and I guess I'll be spending these next few weeks preparing for it... Got to go now, till next time. Cao.
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
Sunday, August 22, 2010
No one to talk to..........
Feeling kind of down at the moment... So many things in my mind but no one to share with...
Monday, August 16, 2010
Hi there....
Wow! Again it seems like forever since the last time I posted a post. Well well, right now I am in my third semester of A levels studies and the second sem results is coming out in just a few days time and the nerves are hitting me badly. What if... There is just so much to write about haha.
Alright, first I actually took my Ielts and got a band 8 for it. Honestly I was quite happy about it but I expected more... as usual. Right now the thing that is bugging me is the personal statement that I need to write for the application of UCAS. Looking at those sample statements, I felt so dwarfed by those people's achievements. Haiz. If only I was as good as them.....
Besides that, I am also currently contemplating about applying to the US. But.. there is always the but, haha, I'll need to take the SAT exams and finish my applications and personal statements by the end of the year. Its just so troublesome when you come to think about it. I am still not sure as to whether to apply for it or not... Hmmm.... decisions, decisions...
As for the college work that I am currently doing, it'll be the Malaysian Studies work that is fast becoming a pain in the ass. I thought it'll be a breeze with the new found geniuses in my team but how wrong I was. As usual there are the ones where they just can't function properly and well I and a few other team members end up covering for them. Frustrating isn't it? Haha.
That's why for the UCAS thingy I am actually hoping to get into great universities like Cambridge and Imperial College. Seems a little far-fetched eh? I don't know, but I certainly don't rule them out. People around me here are all so damn rich, they actually can afford to do twinning programs with their parents' money. A little jealous here I guess... But I realised that only if I got to go to those overseas Universities through my own effort that I'll be truly satisfied. So the hard work got to start...
I have been quite lazy I have to say. Astonishingly, I came to a realisation that computer games no longer appeal to me anymore. Which is kind of weird considering how hooked on it I was during my schooling times. Nowadays I'd rather spend my weekends doing research and reading up on the latest technology available. Strange right? Just like the poem that I wrote a few years ago, the unpredictability of time.
It changes you, gives you a new perspective on life, gives you new loving friends which I didn't knew exists, and above all it still has so much to offer...
That's it for now, I guess till the next post which might be in a few months' time. ^.^
Alright, first I actually took my Ielts and got a band 8 for it. Honestly I was quite happy about it but I expected more... as usual. Right now the thing that is bugging me is the personal statement that I need to write for the application of UCAS. Looking at those sample statements, I felt so dwarfed by those people's achievements. Haiz. If only I was as good as them.....
Besides that, I am also currently contemplating about applying to the US. But.. there is always the but, haha, I'll need to take the SAT exams and finish my applications and personal statements by the end of the year. Its just so troublesome when you come to think about it. I am still not sure as to whether to apply for it or not... Hmmm.... decisions, decisions...
As for the college work that I am currently doing, it'll be the Malaysian Studies work that is fast becoming a pain in the ass. I thought it'll be a breeze with the new found geniuses in my team but how wrong I was. As usual there are the ones where they just can't function properly and well I and a few other team members end up covering for them. Frustrating isn't it? Haha.
That's why for the UCAS thingy I am actually hoping to get into great universities like Cambridge and Imperial College. Seems a little far-fetched eh? I don't know, but I certainly don't rule them out. People around me here are all so damn rich, they actually can afford to do twinning programs with their parents' money. A little jealous here I guess... But I realised that only if I got to go to those overseas Universities through my own effort that I'll be truly satisfied. So the hard work got to start...
I have been quite lazy I have to say. Astonishingly, I came to a realisation that computer games no longer appeal to me anymore. Which is kind of weird considering how hooked on it I was during my schooling times. Nowadays I'd rather spend my weekends doing research and reading up on the latest technology available. Strange right? Just like the poem that I wrote a few years ago, the unpredictability of time.
It changes you, gives you a new perspective on life, gives you new loving friends which I didn't knew exists, and above all it still has so much to offer...
That's it for now, I guess till the next post which might be in a few months' time. ^.^
Friday, January 8, 2010
Exam looming...
Wow, can't really believe it I guess, it has been such a lo0nnnng time since I last updated my blog. haha. Lazy plus insufficient time make the excuse.
Alright, right now I am going to have my exam next Monday, which is pretty soon. Well, things aren't exactly as easy as I thought. Especially the biology paper. Can't seem to pen down the right answer all the time. Haiz. So frustrating you know...
One of the reasons is probably because the paper isn't as straight forward as SPM. Think, think, think that is what they want me to do. However hard I try, I just can't figure it out. Why?? I kept asking myself, perhaps I should ask myself more of that during the exam then I will be able to do it haha.
Whatever it is, I'll just do my best and wait for the results... My aim? Sky high as usual. Hope to achieve it though. But with my current state, seems doubtful.
To all my friends who are having their exams, Goodluck guys and gals. ^.^
Got to go, till next time................
Alright, right now I am going to have my exam next Monday, which is pretty soon. Well, things aren't exactly as easy as I thought. Especially the biology paper. Can't seem to pen down the right answer all the time. Haiz. So frustrating you know...
One of the reasons is probably because the paper isn't as straight forward as SPM. Think, think, think that is what they want me to do. However hard I try, I just can't figure it out. Why?? I kept asking myself, perhaps I should ask myself more of that during the exam then I will be able to do it haha.
Whatever it is, I'll just do my best and wait for the results... My aim? Sky high as usual. Hope to achieve it though. But with my current state, seems doubtful.
To all my friends who are having their exams, Goodluck guys and gals. ^.^
Got to go, till next time................
Sunday, August 30, 2009
A Break.....
A break phew.... Kind of relief about having a break after studying for consecutive 12 weeks. Never had I thought that 9 months down the road my destiny would turn out to be so different. Yeah, like I had mentioned a thousand times before life is indeed unpredictable....
But it is the unpredictability that makes it interesting, that keeps us guessing what would be coming next....
A levels might be easier than what I had experienced before but that also means that the going will only get tougher from here. Seems like perfection is the key to err success in A levels. Judging on what I had heard the past week, I realised that in almost every single subject achieving the 100 marks is the ultimate goal. A 98 is simply just not good enough.
Well, well seems like there is a huge task ahead of me.... Got to start studying harder... No doubt about that. The hope of securing a scholarship is the only thing that drives me on I guess..... Hope... something that always enlighten our hearts.... Perfection here I come!!!
But it is the unpredictability that makes it interesting, that keeps us guessing what would be coming next....
A levels might be easier than what I had experienced before but that also means that the going will only get tougher from here. Seems like perfection is the key to err success in A levels. Judging on what I had heard the past week, I realised that in almost every single subject achieving the 100 marks is the ultimate goal. A 98 is simply just not good enough.
Well, well seems like there is a huge task ahead of me.... Got to start studying harder... No doubt about that. The hope of securing a scholarship is the only thing that drives me on I guess..... Hope... something that always enlighten our hearts.... Perfection here I come!!!
Friday, August 14, 2009
Finally out of it!
After 10 weeks studying at UTAR I am out of it!! This Wednesday I just went to MCKL to study A levels. After considering all my options I have decided that A levels would be the way to go in keeping my options open.
It just feels so good right now. No reports to worry about, no assignment to stress about, phew this is such a free flowing life I am having right now. Truth be told, A levels seem a little easy currently haha.
Going to this college is so much more easy as I only need to take the KTM to KL Sentral and have a 10 minutes walk to my college. Besides that, right now I finally am able to participate in co-curricular activities..... I have been longing for it after 10 weeks of complete boredom....
The theme of 'study,study,study' is kind of over right now. Although the system in this college kind of mirror the secondary school, I feel that this style suits me a lot. Really looking forward to the next few weeks, haha.
My old self is getting back again. I am looking forward to each trip to school. This feeling is so pleasant to have I guess...
That's it for now, I am kind of looking forward to the Merdeka holidays, I am sure we will be able to meet up haha.
It just feels so good right now. No reports to worry about, no assignment to stress about, phew this is such a free flowing life I am having right now. Truth be told, A levels seem a little easy currently haha.
Going to this college is so much more easy as I only need to take the KTM to KL Sentral and have a 10 minutes walk to my college. Besides that, right now I finally am able to participate in co-curricular activities..... I have been longing for it after 10 weeks of complete boredom....
The theme of 'study,study,study' is kind of over right now. Although the system in this college kind of mirror the secondary school, I feel that this style suits me a lot. Really looking forward to the next few weeks, haha.
My old self is getting back again. I am looking forward to each trip to school. This feeling is so pleasant to have I guess...
That's it for now, I am kind of looking forward to the Merdeka holidays, I am sure we will be able to meet up haha.
Sunday, August 2, 2009
Frustration yet again....
Can't believe it......... Arghhh whatever assignment that I am doing now is just so me. I am the dictator of every single thing. It is just so not the purpose of doing an assignment. Haiz.
All the stuff that had been sent to me is just so messed up and so not cohesive that I had to edit almost every single part. Hey, looking back you guys were just awesome in doing the assignments. Kind of regretting that I didn't appreciate your efforts back then. haha.
I guess that is life, you can't expect everything to be perfect. True, not every member is bad, but still the bad ones are just too much to cope with. One phrase I learnt in Form 3 still etched deeply in my mind, ' things don't always go the way you want it to be, but you have to make the best out of the things turned out.'
I just have to best use whatever that I possess and turn it into something that I deem to be the best. Then I could have look back and say, I have tried my very best. Although I am trying hard not to be a lone crusader, but I guess sometimes I just have to do things myself.
I have learnt something truly important the last 6 months, that is don't expect others to give you a hand all the time, you just have to rely on your own abilities and capabilities. Only then, you can be completely independent......
It has been a long while since we yumcha together, maybe we should have it during the upcoming school holidays, guys please make yourself available during that period!
I guess that is it for now..... I feel like I am venting my anger over here.:p Hope you guys don't get bored reading my frustration all the time. haha.
All the stuff that had been sent to me is just so messed up and so not cohesive that I had to edit almost every single part. Hey, looking back you guys were just awesome in doing the assignments. Kind of regretting that I didn't appreciate your efforts back then. haha.
I guess that is life, you can't expect everything to be perfect. True, not every member is bad, but still the bad ones are just too much to cope with. One phrase I learnt in Form 3 still etched deeply in my mind, ' things don't always go the way you want it to be, but you have to make the best out of the things turned out.'
I just have to best use whatever that I possess and turn it into something that I deem to be the best. Then I could have look back and say, I have tried my very best. Although I am trying hard not to be a lone crusader, but I guess sometimes I just have to do things myself.
I have learnt something truly important the last 6 months, that is don't expect others to give you a hand all the time, you just have to rely on your own abilities and capabilities. Only then, you can be completely independent......
It has been a long while since we yumcha together, maybe we should have it during the upcoming school holidays, guys please make yourself available during that period!
I guess that is it for now..... I feel like I am venting my anger over here.:p Hope you guys don't get bored reading my frustration all the time. haha.
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